I am a friggin moran

That's right I said moran.


Why am I rushing to get this bill paid so quickly? Yeah, I owe Becker $3000. Yeah in January I have to start paying my loans from Salter. But jesus I didn't need to stress myself out about it. My issue was that I can't enroll in any classes anywhere until I pay Becker. I wanted to get my loans from Salter deferred, but can't do that unless I am enrolled in school. You see the vicious cycle starting, right?

Well I have to be enrolled in school within 6 months to defer payments. So I had to pay Becker within 6 months. You see where I'm going with this.

Well 6 months from now is the middle of a semester. It's not possible for me to pay all that shit. And I don't want to enroll in school for January. I have no choice but to wait until August, so why stress myself out? I think I can get the Becker bill paid off by August. In fact, I know I can. I can also handle making my monthly payments to Sallie Mae of around $130. I'll pay as much as possible to Becker each month, shooting for around $300 a month. Some months I will try to pay more, some months I won't be able to, like when I go to California. But the point is, I CAN get this done in time to enroll for Fall 2006. And then once I'm enrolled somewhere, fuck yeah I will defer my payments to Sallie Mae.

And then, I will take over the world.
Why did I not realize this before?

So the second job is still necessary, the not going out as much is still necessary, but at least I don't have to freak out, or feel guilty about the good times I have upcoming.
Someone please smack me around...