Confused

I'm glad I'm back in school. I'm kind of going off on my own path here and its good and bad all at once. I intended originally to get right into the International Business program, but I haven't really done that yet. I've signed up for a lot of random classes just to see where my interests fall. I can tell you right now that they aren't falling anywhere within the classes I'm taking. That's not to say I don't enjoy the classes, because I do, I'm just questioning the direction I'm going in.

I'm not taking any English classes this semester. This is very weird for me because I love English classes and I'm good at them (despite what my writing in this blog may advertise). English courses are fun and challenging for me. I've thought a lot about majoring in English but have never really pursued it because I'm not sure you can do anything with an English degree but teach. Teaching does not appeal to me at all, whatsoever. Or so I thought.

My Italian class is doing everything in its power to boost my desire to move to Europe. I know it sounds silly to want to move somewhere I've never been, but its the only way I'll see the world. I've never left North America in my life and that is just insane. I have insatiable wanderlust, to the point that its made me stir crazy on more than one occasion. I've come to the conclusion that the only way I'll really do this is if I somehow end up working overseas. That was my big motivation to major in International Business. I'm realizing now that maybe that's not the right thing to do. All I'm doing is setting myself up to sit in an office in a different country. That sounds truly horrendous to me. During my Italian class I find myself gazing at the "TEACH ENGLISH ABROAD" posters they have up. And you know what, that sounds awesome to me. Its a job, but not in an office, and I'm doing something that comes naturally to me anyway. I've always helped people out in my English classes. I have a knack for explaining the ridiculous grammar rules in a way that makes sense to people. So why wouldn't I do that for a living? Its starting to make more and more sense to me. Major in something I love instead of something I think I need to do and use that as a springboard to do something I've always wanted to do: live in another country and be exposed to a whole new culture.

So maybe when I finally speak to my advisor I can change courses for next semester. Continue taking Italian so I really learn another language, but focus on working towards a degree in English.

Writing this, it makes me wonder why I didn't think of this a long time ago. If there's anything I've learned over the past 6 months its that plans don't always really work the way you intend or want them to. Sometimes, they work out for the better, even if its super annoying and inconvenient at the time. So if I change majors, will these courses be a waste of my time? I don't think so because I wouldn't be thinking about any of this without them. And I know I can use what I'm learning now in the future.