A revelation

So I've been seeing a therapist for about a month. Its been pretty great and I think its going to do wonders for my fucked up little head. Tonight I made my first revelation and a HUGE weight has been taken off my shoulders. I've spent a lot of time an energy trying to fix other people's problems. I befriend people who have much deeper and more severe issues than me and try to help them through it. I look at them and think: "Oh I'm fine. They're the nutty ones." The problem is that I'm not fixing my own issues, and these people latch on to me and end up suffocating me and I lash out in really unhealthy ways. Its not their fault because that's how I've presented myself to them. I never realized it until now, but it makes a ton of sense now that I've looked back on my failed friendships and relationships. I need to put a stop to that shit. I have to stop using other people as my measuring stick for what's ok to think and feel and start looking at myself. Everyone is fucked up but I'm going to spend my life being leaned on if I don't start looking in. Its not selfish, its necessary.

Jeez. Why haven't I thought of this before?