I've Changed

NP: Otis Redding-A Change Is Gonna Come

I'm not a drunk mess anymore. I barely drink, I don't eat red meat, I kicked caffeine and I hate going to bars. I'd rather go somewhere new, go for a walk/hike, play on the beach/desert/mountains, relax in my house or at a good friend's. This means when I am at a restaurant I don't want it to be treated like a bar. Last night we celebrated a friend's dinner and there was a lot of drunken screaming before dinner was even served. We sat at the table and it was absolute hell. Everyone was wasted and being obnoxious save for a small few of us. I just wanted a nice meal with some friends but it felt more like a frat party. I wonder if the old me would have been in the thick of it, just as drunk and obnoxious. I'd like to think I knew the art of 'time and place' but who knows. I know last night I was simply NOT feeling it. I am really over making a spectacle of myself and being around others who aren't over it yet. (I left in the nick of time last night. Shortly after I left everyone got kicked out because one of our group felt the need to put her ass in a cake)

I know people are used to the wild party animal that could be the loudest/drunkest in the room but that is by far not me anymore. I know how people will react to this. Its the same way I used to react when I perceived people as acting "above it" or "too cool". Its interesting to see the people who have fallen out of my life because of this change. I'm sure I'll lose a lot of "friends" but I don't think I care. I'll concern myself with the ones who stick around who don't cheer when someone sits in a cake at a restaurant.