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School is going so much better this semester. Studying something I love is so motivating. I haven't skipped any classes yet (I almost did one day but I was just an hour late instead) and last semester I skipped one a week haha.

Not drinking is not working anymore. I got really drunk on Saturday and rambled nonsense at people. I drank one drink the weekend before that, and I got really wasted one night after a meeting. Its nowhere near where it used to be, but this past weekend was a bad one. Back on the wagon I go. I have booze in the house but I don't ever drink it. I have a hard time saying no to free booze when I'm out in public I guess.

I cannot find a job to save my life. Its really frustrating and stupid. I hope something works out soon, but its hard times right now. Luckily I have dead relative money to fall back on. I guess if you can't have the people in your life its nice to have things? I don't believe that but its helping right now so I'll be thankful instead of bummed out about it.

I have visitors coming in April. I hope I have enough money to entertain them while they're here. My best friend is bringing a friend I've only met once so I'm a little bummed about that, but I have classes while she's here so its good she'll have someone to hang out with while I'm learning.

I've been thinking about a lot lately. Mostly how I seem to be able to close the door on things that have plagued me for a very long time. I am friends with someone who I never thought I'd be able to think about without my heart breaking. I never thought I'd be in this place with him, and its a huge relief that we can be friendly. I am coming to peace with a lot of things that have gone on in my life. I'm not shutting out the thoughts when they come, I'm working through them and moving on. Its a nice change.