Weird Dream

I woke up this morning feeling very unsettled and strange. It hasn't gone away yet.

I had a dream last night that I had a kid. He was a cool little fucker and I was doing great as a single mom. It was one of those dreams that seemed really real and in my dream I was very happy. I woke up this morning realizing it wasn't true, and was instantly sad. This is crazy to me. I don't want a kid. Why the hell was I said? It instantly made me think about a choice I made a few years ago and I was filled with regret all over again. I was just talking to a friend about this a few weeks ago and I really thought I was OK. I guess I'll never really be over it, and there will always be some lingering regret that will sneak up on me out of nowhere.

Not a great way to start my day.