Going Insane

So I'm going back to school in August...I think. I've been playing the waiting game and doing everything I can to speed up this process, but everything is basically out of my hands. I know its all going to work out in the end, I just can't deal with my life being so out of my control. Its a really uncomfortable, frustrating feeling.

I'm glad I'm leaving this job, though. Sitting in front of a computer for 8+ hours a day is really taking a toll on my sanity. I feel so much happier and refreshed when I'm not sitting here, but I don't have a choice in the matter for 2 more weeks. You'd think the fact that I am almost done with this job would bring me a sense of relief, but I seriously feel like I'm dying a slow death over here. Its pretty awful and I need it to be done NOW.

There's a lot of bad shit going on in my head right now. I've befriended the wrong people out here and I am dealing with a lot of regret. If I wasn't so down in the dumps about everything else, I probably wouldn't even have noticed, so this crapfest is for the best in the long run.

I have SO MUCH to think about right now. I'm stressed out, overwhelmed and depressed and unsure how to handle it. I need time to myself badly.