The good and bad are balancing out and life is just 'ok'
I cannot find a job to save my life. I am barely getting by, but at least I am getting by.
My brakes are starting to go on my car, I need an oil change and some new tires but I CANNOT afford to take care of this right now. I don't need to drive much but I have visitors coming and a LOT of driving to do so I am actually scared of what's going to happen.
I love roller derby more than ever but probably can't afford to do it anymore.
My brokeness is making depression seep in again. I feel guilty leaving my house if its not for school, so I don't leave my house ever and I don't get any sunshine or exercise.
I have health insurance thanks to my family but can't afford to use it. I can't afford co-pays of prescriptions or the gas to go to appointments.
I lost enough weight that my work clothes no longer fit, but can't afford to get new ones. I need a job but have nothing to wear to interviews or to work.
Life is so weird right now. I keep trying to tell myself it could be worse, and I know it could. I stay up all night just WORRYING. Its so unhealthy.
I honestly don't see an end to this global economic crisis any time soon. In a few years it will be better. We all have to learn how to live differently but that will never happen. Scares the bejesus out of me.
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You're so right about the impending revolution of the way we all live...! And yeah, it's a bit scary, but also exciting!!
Keep your chin up, and just ask the universe for what you need :) Sounds glame, but read "the secret" (I have 2 copies, I'll send you one if you email me your address :)
After all, you can't always get what you want... well, you know the rest ;)
Love you lots.
Things are pretty damn scary out there, but you has a LOT of friends who care about you. Remember that.
You'll make it. You're not alone.
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